I have so very very much to be thankful for this year.
Even though I was forced to face the most difficult situation of my life, I have been surrounded by the most amazing people I could ever hope to come across, and their love and support has carried me through even the darkest of times. And they haven’t been all dark, either! I am extremely blessed just to be me – to have lucked into the life I have, with all of the resources and options I could need, just within arms reach.
So, in honor of the season of Thanksgiving, I have decided to start a blog post series called “Thankful Thursday”. Every Thursday in November, I will be sharing something that I am grateful for this year – and I invite you all to join me in reflection, by sharing what YOU’RE thankful for in the comments, or by using the hashtag #ThankfulThursday on Twitter!
Before the rush of the Christmas season hits us – along with it’s frantic shopping and buying and gifting – let’s take a moment to pause, acknowledge, and be grateful for, all that we already have.
Thankful Thursday – A New Addition
Long-time readers know that I have always wanted to be a mom. The first time anyone asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up, at the age of two, “a mom” was my response. I don’t have any clue why, but I have always known that it was something I was meant to do.
So after the loss of our first baby “Sparrow” due to miscarriage in May of this year, I was beyond devastated. It was like there was a huge hole in my heart that just could not be filled.
Until three months later, on my birthday, when I took a test and it came back positive! My heart was flooded with all of the usual emotions – excitement, love, fear, – and it hasn’t stopped overflowing with each of them since.
Today I am Thankful.
I am thankful that we are well into our 2nd trimester with a baby boy, past the point of worry, past the point of our previous loss, and armed with the knowledge that our trisomy 21/18/13 test is normal! So although the worry will never truly end, I am thankful that we have one less thing to worry about.
I am thankful that although it’s not gone completely, my morning sickness is now sticking mainly to the mornings, and that it’s manageable unlike the last pregnancy.
I am thankful that my son will have two parents, who are together. And that I’m married to a man who is excited to be a father. I am thankful that he is good with babies and children, and that he wants to be as involved and hands-on with parenting as I am. I am thankful that he was a sweet, intelligent, funny, nice boy growing up; and not a holy terror, so that I can look forward to having a son like him.
Surprisingly enough, I’m even thankful that we’re having a boy, even though I thought I always wanted a girl! But from the very beginning I knew he was a he, and I have been obsessively pinning ideas to his Cowboy/Western Themed Nursery Board on Pinterest, and dreaming of making him into a little gentleman. I can’t wait to smell his little boy smell and count his toes and cuddle with him in his pajamas on the couch on sleepy weekend mornings!
Most of all, I am incredibly thankful that I get to be this little boy’s mom – I am thankful that he chose me to teach the ways of motherhood to, and the meaning of unconditional love.
I can’t wait to start this new adventure!
What are you Thankful for this Thursday? Share your gratitude in the comments, or by using the hashtag #ThankfulThursday on Twitter!